How Can Get My Self In Better Condition ???

Well...
Actually I know that something happened to me
something that make me confuss with myself...

Every body thought that Im the strong one
Every body thought Im the dilligent one...

nevertheless...
I wanna tell you that ..Im not really like what you see
If you you wanna know the real me,,
dont see me but look at me.

" this is real, this is me, im exactly where im supposed to be now, gotta get the light, shine on me "
" now ive found who i am..theres no way to hold it in"
" no more hiding who i wanna be"
" this is me "

Then...
This time
to forget something bad in my life
say " Ashtaghfirullahaladzim "
"Laa haula walaa quwwata Illa billah "